Had a choice and I made one.

It's been almost 5 months since I moved out from my rented old condominium unit. Leaving several memorable things or stuffs behind. Some DVDs underneath the bed and several good old books in her drawer. I left behind an iPad too. It's all for her. I'd packed my last clothing into every suitcase I can find. I have no idea she packed that last suitcase for me. I have no idea, 6 years from now, I am leaving my wife. I've always wondered how did she felt when she packed my suitcase? Yes, she packed a suitcase and some bedsheets for me. I guess she had it all ready and knew that I had to leave. Some said our time had come to an end or it's just pleasantries to make this whole divorce sounds more comforting?

We signed our divorce paper on the 3rd August 2012, this year. That was 5 months ago and I'd received my copy of divorce paper and hers too. We are now officially back to our single life. She's back at her own work. For me, I am back as a single man with someone whom I think I am not so sure if I want to be with. Every time when I drive to Pulau Tikus or Georgetown, I can't just stop thinking of my ex-wife. 

Anyway, what's done it's done. There's no way I can turn back the clock tell myself don't walk the wrong path. I had a choice and I made one. Was it a good choice? I do not know.

1. I wish  I had taken the long road, grab a map, identified all the places I wanted to visit with my ex-wife. Instead of just going to and back from work and stay at home. 

2. I wish I had plan more vacation with her. 

3. I wish I had plan more food exploring with her.

4. I wish I did not just keep buying stuffs for her and spoiled her.

5. I wish I did not just nodded to all her request and spoiled her.

6. I wish I had kept to my promise and bring her to a honeymoon; not always with the family.

7. I wish I've listen to her more often and talk more to her. 

8. I wish I could've drag her along to all my outings.

9. I wish I could've done more as a husband to her in the past 6 years...

Five years from now... I've no idea... 

williamwilstroth... divorce is not easy...